By the share of experiences that life has made me cross paths with till date, i can affirmatively quote that the mere act of living has utmost power of drastically hampering with your mental peace forever. Now dont you misinterpret my first line with my unwillingness to even continue living in this world of enemies and back stabbers.i am just saying that i personally feel that no matter how much i try to provide this hasty world with my share of enlightening selfless help and support,there are never equivalent return rates to be found.
And yes you could just always think in a certain way of being self sufficed by your kind acts for others and by believing that somehow you might have turned around this nasty little world full of selfish demons into just a little better off of a place to reside in.still that would never help you from constricting that emptiness all around your body which although took birth in a small part of your shattered and conned heart but has now spread all over your body by making that innocent skipping blood of yours its comrade.
You are well aware of this emptiness which was initially caused when you realised that though you are surrounded by several beings around you ,most of them are just wearing these masks on their faces which they superglued on themselves way back in their lives.these people too know the consequences of their petty means of dealing with unwanted and unhealthy situations.but when you are continuously forced by the society to neglect the identity and uniqueness that god imbibed in you,you often tend to adapt to the ideal but not so ideal expectations of others.
Now even though the revolting adolescent in me diligently tries to speak against these inhuman norms,the adjusting and compromising adult is always on call duty to shun that adolescent.
So after these many years of fighting with the world and then with myself ,i am just horribly tired .i just need a break from this ruckus. so yes like every other being alive in this foolish world i eventually came to terms with these evils of the society.i surely like everyone else have stopped searching for reliable friends and instead have made this emptiness superimposed on me my solace .i have at last taken my vows of staying truely and only its ‘the one’ till death eventually parts us.
Now thats where i end even contemplating on this topic because even pointing fingers against it is illegal.
And trust me folks i do abide to these regulations.hence,whenever i feel that urge to escape i just say one thing to myself-i wish i was back floating in a swimming pool right now .
Thats because these words could never be elucidated to offend anyone and i just can continue to wish this because back floating in a swimming pool is a scenario where for some time i can avoid all the noise around by shoving that water in my ears ,look up at the stars beyond which god resides and fake for sometime to be floating away like a dead corpse because i am sadly aware that only death will part me from this emptiness. And in this phase i am able to get abundance of serenity and calmness that i could possibly ever get being alive.
So till i lose all control on my body parts and all control on my brain and untill that gushing blood, commuting the emptiness stops flowing once and for all i continue to wish that i was back floating in a swimming pool right now.